Life Faster Than Thoughts
Reflections on touring through Saudi Arabia by Micha Königs
How do you look for something
when you don’t know what it is?
What if you don’t even know the place where to look?
And you’re not even surewho is searching —or why?
And how do you find somethingwhen you’re not searching at all?
Because sometimes,when it seems like I haveeverything,I notice that something is missing
And sometimes,
when I have almost nothing,
I realize I have everything
for the past two weeks life moved faster than my thoughts
could catch upbetween lamb heads,
dates and eating rice with my fingers
on roads I thought in never ride, places i never see,
people Inever know I needed
I found something
I didn’t even know I was missing
my perception of speed and movement got increasingly disoriented in the rat race style I am living my life
between friendships, working, training and finishinguniversity
it’s sometimes hard to see where I am headedcomfort pace sometimes feels too intense or like it’s notgetting me anywherespeeding up sometimes creates claritythings get blurry,
random thoughts come into my head but
don’t stay long and don’t have as much impact as normal
Speed and power stabilize meright now,
I am flying,
no thought can keep up with menot scared of dying,
just of not having lived enough
I am prepared for the slip,
cause I know how to stay upright
I accept that I cannot remember everything and hold onto every moment in order to make space for new
still, I don’t forget the important faces, roads andrealizations
for the past two weeks life moved faster than my thoughts
between lamb heads, dates and eating rice with my fingers
on roads I thought in never ride,
places i never see,
people Inever know I needed
I found something I didn’t even know I was missing
my perception of speed and movement got increasingly disoriented in the rat race style I am living my life
between friendships, working, training and finishing university
it’s sometimes hard to see where I am headed
comfort pace sometimes feels too intense or like it’s not getting me anywhere
speeding up sometimes creates clarity
things get blurry, random thoughts come into my head but
don’t stay long and don’t have as much impact as normal
Speed and power stabilize meright now, I am flying, no thought can keep up with me not scared of dying,
just of not having lived enough
I am prepared for the slip,
cause I know how to stay upright
I accept that i cannot remember everything and hold onto every moment in order to make space for new
still, I don’t forget the important faces, roads andrealizations
I understand something I wasn’t questioning
it’s not a race till the end
it’s a journey through my life
moment by moment
emotion by emotion
high and lows
on my own and connected with others
sometimes at full speed till the next town sign
sometimes head over heels into a new country with new people
sometimes easing of and not let only emotions pass
but taking them in finding the strength to leave questions temporarily
unanswered trusting that I’ll have the strength to live out the answers looking at the sea,
sitting on the curb, the backseat of a caror below a thousand stars
I came to realize my gratitude and contentment is not indeciding for one live
It’s living the everyday life to the fullest while also seeking the unknown to make new memories to come home with
It lives in the moments I share with my friends:
creating love, memories, and the foundations of my life
and in the distance where their impact and support reveal themselves most clearly
happy is not the absence of sadness
self-confidence not the absence of doubts
energy not the absence of tiredness
being is not one sided but being able to handle both
It’s not the absence of contrasts,
but the way it highlightsthe details and
clarifies what is important
It’s not chicken or rice,
it’s chicken and rice
I am coming home,
but I will be back on the road
I can be both the storm in movement
and the calm that follows
I can be happy and still searching
I can be own my own and still not alone
I am me through the connection with you
and I will keep on finding.
Inshallah!
